I took a look back this morning at my blog post from a year ago. I was so hopeful. I thought for sure I would have a baby in my arms by now.
I had it all set up. I was going to get pregnant in June, be due in February and ask to have my C-section on my 30th birthday.
Are all newbies so hopeful? Do some know there will be issues from the beginning?
I think we wee about 7 or 8 months in when I knew there was a problem. I originally thought that it was most likely me. I think all ladies going through IF think it is them. Hell, it might still be me, too.
I am so thankful for the group of Internet strangers that have helped me and still continue to help me on a daily basis.
Sometimes being on an forum with women that are all trying to accomplish the same thing can be hard. Its hard not to be sad when a newb gets a BFP.
Will I ever get to tell M that he is going to be a dad? When do you throw in the towel?
If it were up to me we would continue on with testing/treatment, but for him this is not an option.
He has justifiable reasons so I can't be mad at him. I just hope in time his heart changes.
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