9 weeks

How far: 9
Size of baby: Large Grape
Physical symptoms: Constipation and hungry all the time. 
Starting Weight: 152
Gain/loss: -8
Maternity clothes: Sadly yes already. I know most people say it's bloat but it never fully goes away. I'm not going to be able to hide it much longer. I normally have no belly at all. 
Stretch marks: Not yet. 
Sleep: What's that?
Best moment: Wondering around Babies R Us with he baby daddy. 
Movement: I'm not that girl.....
Cravings: Slurpees and carbs

Gender: Undecided on if we will be Team Green or not. 
Labor signs: Nope
Belly button: In
What I miss: Sleeping & wearing comfortable clothing. 
What I am looking forward to: NT scan on May 27th. 
Milestones: We had a regular appointment (first with the OB) last Tuesday and saw the HB that measured 146. 

A long time coming.......

I have waited a while to post this because I know I have a couple people IRL that read this and felt that immediate family should know first.

But on April 11th at a little after 7 am, I urinated in a shot glass and used the little dropper for my trusty dollar store test and within about 3 seconds I knew I AM PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!

After 25 months, loads of tears, giving up, starting again, giving up again.......it finally happened. One of his swimmers decided to have a little direction and make its way to my egg.

We have had two ultrasounds thus far. The first one was last Tuesday and I was measuring 5 1/2 weeks. It was to early for a heartbeat but I was given my EDD of 12/13/14. We went back today and were able to see one beautiful heartbeat. Dr.M was having some issues with the machine so I wasn't able to get the rate but I saw it! I saw it even before Dr.M did.

D. M released me to the regular OB today. Our 8 week appointment is next Friday. I don't know how I'm going to wait. I know there will be a huge difference between 6 and 8 weeks. I'm so ready to see that little gummy bear.


I'm all over the place here but I thought I should also mention the big reveal. Easter is a big ordeal in M's family. His parents church had nearly 2,500 people in attendance. So big that it had to be moved to the local civic center. My mom usually comes over for Easter service as well since she is an hour away and all alone. We then follow service with a big dinner at his parents and a Easter egg hunt for the kids (300 eggs for 3 kids, can anybody say overkill). I decided it was perfect timing we have golden eggs that equal special prizes. I let my sister-in-law know a couple days ahead of time and we made this..

Needless to say it went over well. Everyone is thrilled and extremely happy for us.

Is it December yet?

2014 New Year , New Me!

A lot has changed in the last month and as usual I am late to the game letting my blog friends know about them.

When I posted last I was in a very bad place, I was angry and frustrated and about to throw in the towel. Well after a major breakdown and heart to heart with M we have decided to move forward with treatment. I'm not sure exactly what that means but it’s a step in the right direction.

For the first time since this process started I finally feel like we are in the same book. Not necessarily the same page but possibly the same chapter. I think if he were more educated in the ins and outs of infertility it could be even better. But he hasn't spent the last two years obsessing over this like I have.

In 2014 I have goal, that goal is to be more true to my feelings and stop sheltering everyone else. I am going to be open about our struggles and that has already required me to put a couple people "in their place".

I will not put myself in situations where I feel uncomfortable. I have been true to this already and we are only 8 days in GO ME!!!!!

On Saturday there was a baby shower for M's cousin. His mother and sister gave me a hard time about not going. I was very blunt with them and told them that I know I would be sad and it wouldn't do anyone any good to have me around. I explained that it didn't mean I don't love her or her baby but the last two years have been incredibly hard and going to a shower only makes me mourn what I don't have. I bought a nice gift and sent it with them.

2014 will be a good year. Sure I may not get pregnant but as long as we are moving at a steady pace and he is willing to take the steps needed I will be greatful. Our first RE appointment is March 3, 2014. I hope we can make a plan or start moving toward a plan.

This is an exciting yet humbling point to be at. It means we can't do it on our own but that we are willing to take steps together to make us happy.

Oh and one more development. We have started looking at rings. I will be engaged by April if all goes as planned. We won't be getting married anytime in the near future .... Maybe since we do things in 7's we will have a Fall 2021 wedding.