Monday, June 4, 2012

The First Let Down

AF came to visit on Saturday.

I guess I had false hopes of it happening on the first try (2nd off BC). I took OPK's and know that I ovulated on CD 13. The timing was wonderful. Though I don't see that being an issue for us EVER.

I had it all planned out in my little world. See, if I would have got KU in May my due date would have been in Feb. It just so happens that I will be 30 in Feb. I will most likely have to have a repeat C-section because of all the complications with P. So I was going to beg to have it done on my 30th birthday. Oh well, I guess I am not supposed to have a birthday baby. This could be a good thing because I will get 8 weeks off and I would prefer to have the time in the summer!

Since I never tried to get pregnant with Paiton I have no idea what to expect. Obviously, not everyone can be my friend H who looks at her husband and is pregnant. Honestly, I have a lot more friends that have had trouble than those who just seem to be "Fertile Myrtle".

I am kind of ashamed of myself for being disappointed. A co-worker of mine has been trying since Jan. 2008. I see her on a daily basis. I love her little heart and I hate that she and her hubby have not been able to have a baby. She would be a great mom.

So snap out of it and put on your big girl panties (obviously you have to right now because the flood gates have opened).

I wish that I could back to be completely oblivious to how the stars have to a line. I don't want to obsess. However, this is not my nature. If I set my mind to something I will not be satisfied until it happens. I went ahead and ordered more OPK's from Amazon because I am quickly realizing I am a Pee on a Stick Addict!

So here is the plan for this month.....

1) Remember to take my multi-vitamin and extra folic acid!
2) Start taking Evening Primrose Oil.
3) Limit myself to one Dr. Pepper a day. (Not likely to happen, but I will try)
4) Go through my closet and donate everything I haven't worn in 6 months. (Of course I will keep anything that will work as maternity wear)
5) Find a new comforter set for my bedroom.
6) Figure out if I will use Carilion again (different DR. of course) or Lewis Gale (downside, no NICU).
7) GET PREGNANT!